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| So it's been forever and a half that I have written in this thing and a quick up date here.
Everything is fine. LIfe is fine schooljust started a fw weeks ago
Applying to Nursing program this semeseter
Uhhh Roommates are nice and awsome
What to do what to do ...Hmm..
Ok nothing more it's been fun ..
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This has been the craziest WEEK FREAKING EVER!!
SO ok Sorry for not writing in a long time but goddess am I ever busy if it's not one things it's the other if it ain't that it's something else. I swear why can't life slow down so I can smell the flowers? Ok so I haven't been wriring my deepest sincere apologies for that...
ANYWHO..So Ok I've been studying for like ever ( gosh did that just so snobby for me) to pass two exams in two different classes where I am failing. So as of right now I know that I passed my Anatomy and Physiology 2 Exam which means I"m passing that class!!! With a high C which is not good for me so which means I must get a higher grade on my next exam which I won't know about till after we go back in a week. So yeah. Yay for me on that one and the next one Biochem2 I have got no idea cuz the prof didn't send us our grades our posted them on the school site for us to see. Which I'm not happy cuz I really want to know if I passed or not cuz If I didn't Imma be so disappointed going over the damn material for like a 1 1/2 weeks is not fun when I could be doing something else. Trust me when I say I was stressing out over these exams. Then I took out my roommate for her birthday. HELLO ROOMMIE!! I MISS YOU A LOT!!! AND OH GURL DO I GOT STUFF TO TELL YOU!!!..which you will eventually read the highlights in a few LOL. Did the birthday thing studyied more did my exams ditched work for a week and then before leaving to Dallas on a choir tour all hell broke down.
Just when I thought that life was goona look good. There had to be a damn little evil thing around and make it bad. ~shakes a fist~ Anywho. I've been through my friends suicide's attemts well..I've talked to them and made them think twice about stuff and well that helped them not to commit the act..And by Gods will I ALWAYS do something to talk someone out of it and If I can will be there to take care of you my friend...Goddess Inever thought that I would actully do something like that. I never wish anyone to be in my shoes of that day. That is the worse expierence possible. Talk about losing control..Yes a friend attempted suicide..I stopped her..I yelled for others to help me..I was going to talk to her mom..I couldn't I didn't have the voice. It was hard. Very hard. If I had to do it again, I would; I would stop my friend from doing somethng completly and uterrly stupid cuz that's what it is. One thing is to comtemplate it, cuz I'm sure a lot of people have thought about it one time or another, and another thing is actully trying to do it. Gods help me...and they did actully..I was so shaken I just got two hours of sleep before we left and I stopped myself from crying, i beat the hell out of myself (mentally) and felt guilty for a while. I know there was nothing I could have done to prevent it but ya know it's just thoughts that went through my mind..I didn't quite cry..I haven't actully I just sniffed and held my cry some tears and what not...Did it over the way to Dallas with ..my husband. He talked me down and although my friends told me the same thing I guess he has something they don't that calmed me down and made me see how much I had actully done. I'm grateful. Regardless on to a happy subject..I hope she's ok..No you know what?..I know she's ok. She's home. She's fine.
Ok So Dallas!!! It was LOADS OF FUN!!! OMG!!! I have never had so much fun on a road trip before..Maybe cuz I never spent the night at a hotel. Oh that was fun. Beds were comfortable. The concerts were awsome. The churches were very pretty so yeah. Talked to my husband all that weekend and the week before that..which I find very odd...fI don't know why we kept in contact that whole week..~sighs~ he confuses me ..I wish he could just..say..gods I'm such a girl..Forget it..
SO yeah he hadn't called dme since I left him a message that I had arrived home which was sunday and he called me tuesday..I apperently was acting very cold on the phone which I didn't intend for it to sound like that but yeah I felt bad called him back leaving a message saying i'm sorry. I'm actully VERY HAPPY. Been this whole week since we left Dallas. I needed to be home. I missed my mom and dad. ^_^ Ahh the simple life of mine. LOL WEll on the call we had..He actully wants us to get Rings..He wants to buy silver marriage rings that he found.I didn't know what to say I was juust like .. 0______________________0...sooo I'll see about that till Friday as well. I love him..as a friend and everything gosh he IS my best male friend the one who I stupidly fell in deep like..head over hells for and he asked me to do this and I have..but I think he's like this joke way to much seriously. Does that mean he really does wish for there to be something more between us?? Or is it just a trick of my mind cuz gods know I don't know how much longer I will take it. My mom was joking yesterday saying maybe he wants to ask you to be his girlfriend but your sister is always with you. I just laughed and said maybe and then whatever contemplating if what she said was true. If it is then....wow...my friend says he's just to afraid to admit his feelingss becuase he doesn'tw ant to loose another close friend. ~sighs~ what is a gurl to do?? Although I must say ..The ring Idea..I kinda do like. Just for the simple fact that...Nevermind you would never understand...
Well I get to see my best friend on saturday for her baby shower which means I must go shopping tomorrow for something to get her! I'm so excited it's like..she's like my sister and so her baby will be like a nephew! Oh my godd! I haven't seen her..well .. 3/4 of a year I miss her so much!!! I love her she's such an awsome gurla nd she will make an awsome mother. Can't wait for the weekend. car's in the eh shop? fixing up the Front and Rear shocks had to get them replaced soo yeah. Ok well that's all for right now. I can't wait to call you Flaca..
Talk to you guys later.
MUAH LOVE YOU!! | | |
| Current music: Bye bye baby ~Mercurio~/Antes ~Obie Bermudez~
...Bloody freaking hell..bitter..
So as I lay here in my bed learning the lyrics to the song of my performance on Saturday I can't help but think about the love aspect of my life. No really! It's like..I really don't have a love life even though I am married. Do you think it's pathetic that I am used to being overlooked? Seriously. The guys I have ever liked always seemed to look at my friends or someone else I know. It's second nature to me now. Train of thought for example,: Oh he's cute..Oh he's looking at her..Oh well then..hmm...he's still cute..yeah ..
That's how it goes. It's just plain pathetic not to mention that I fucking falling hard for my best friend. I love him to death and everything but sometimes the things he says he just doesn't..it's not..well.. It doesn't go with the way he said he liked me and I really don't know what to make of it. Yes. I've been wanting to rant about this for a while and didn't have the chance.
This week was full of exams and I still have two more to go next week plus a birthday party tomorrow and the performance on Saturday I'm on decorating committe AND doing the pasta soo Yeah! How about that? Aren't I the bloody special one? ~sighs~ I"m just kinda exhausted right now yet I'm waiting for the roommate to call me to pick her up. DAMN IT GABBS WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?!!! Lol.
Going back to what I was saying. Yeah. I find it pathetic. I get jealous of my friends. Don't get me wrong. I am very happy that they like someone and stuff but is it wrong to want someone too as well and that you want to feel needed and wanted by someone else? Maybe having a significant other is just overrated..Huh? you tell me. I wouldn't bloody know even if it bit me in the ass. Ahh the jealousy..I swear that lovely green monster that peers at the side of your shoulder when you see couples fucking walk next to you and kiss and smooch and shit. Bitterness..yes I'm bitter and envious what can I bloody say? Oh and then bloody Valentine's Day!! Oh gosh fucking valentine's day. Although I did get a call from my "husband" which slightly brighten up my day..but then damped it down again. Cuz hello!!! Our marriage is not really a marriage yet it is..It's too complcated but to say the least it won't last past June. Maybe if I go study abroad I can get myself a nice interntional boy..wouldn't mind it...maybe I'll go wild...HAHAHAHA!!! LIKE THAT'LL HAPPEN!
Yes i'm slightly cynical and bitter and envious and all that nice stuff..so for this..uhh night/morning what ever you wanna call it..I bid you all A-motherfreaking-dieu! | | |
| Current mood: ~Dance with the moon & stars*
Current music: ~Baila con la Luna Y las Esterellas~
In which Tuxedo Mask marries one of the Sailor Scouts
Hello darlings...
Yes you read right... In tonight's episode we will see the marriage of Tuxedo Mask with one of the Sailor Scouts. Well ~giggles~ See back in middle school kids love to pretend play and it was a group of four girls and three guys...My friend S ( she will not be named for the mere reason I think at the point she does not merit it) was the ditzy Serena/Usagi of our group, our other ditzy friend was Mina and the one with the temper obviously was our Rei and I was the brains..so I got to be Amy I guess that's why my psuedoname is still that yet I"m the only one that stayed with the nickname oddly enough. My best friend was to be the infamous Darien and we would have our fun at school and what not. Well our Mina fell out of our lives gods only knows how she is at the moment. Rei slowly went away being all in love with someone and away from our school and Our Serena was well..she moved to another school as well. While our Darien and I went to the same school different sections he went to the regular part of school while I went to the magnet and study business and what not. Well as I said and happened to actully discover last nite I am actully married under common law..Ah the things I do for a friend..which at the moment might be the love of my life which will not correspond me -_-'..Regardless! He happened to meet up with Rei at his school as she was being the business rep for one thing or another and he went up to her and went.
"Hey you remember what we were in middle school?"
R:"yeah"
"You remember who we all were?"
R:"uh yeah"
"Well you definetly remember who I AM?"
R:"Yee-ah"
"Well let's just say that Tuxedo Mask married one of the Sailor Scouts" and he walks away.
I just stared at him through my rearview mirror( as I was the one driving this time) and slightly gaped at him before I laughed. I thought it was very hilarious. Yeah apperently he is liking this marriage thing much more than I thought he would. He really is confusing me. At one moment he is declaring to everyone he is common law-ed married with me and then the next as we are waiting in the movies for our function he checks out some girl and states " I need a girlfriend." I am really confused. I wish I could just plain ask him but I don't want to risk our relationship and anyways I think I rather be married 6 months with him and not see him that often and then get a divorce then...to never have any relationship with him...I mean. He payed for my sister's and my ticket for the movies, offered to buy my sister a Razor cell and add him to his plan and he'd pay for it. We fight like a married couple without ...I don't know I am just totally confused. I feel like I'm in a dazed world at the moment..a world of "maya" ( illusion) and I don't want an illusioned filled romantic life I want a real one. Well I guess it's an advantage that I know how to subdue him...~sighs~ Hmm I can think about somethings to talk about all the time with him though.
Anywho..Yesterday was a bitch for my back I drank one of my dad's paink killers and it worked like a miracle and no more pain. Today I was almost rendered to the point of tears in the morning that I could not get up and move around. I think it has to do with the temperture changes; I don't know. But I think that's it cuz Laredo around high 80's lower 90's, was uberly Hot and here in San Antonio today it's no more than 65. So i'm blaming it on that. Well that was one thing that I wanted to share with you guys.
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So yeah..
This weekend till last night has been very ...intresting to say the least. Well ok so on Saturday it was raining and what not and my uncle was not answering his cell phone. So I dropped off my roommate to her work and got to my uncle's. He was still asleep -_-'. So yeah we left for Houston around 10 and got there around 1. I spent the whole afternoon in my aunt's and uncle's house and we had some fun. Chilled and caught up with my cousins and stuff. It started raining so my cousins and uncles were freaking out over the rain cuz my cousins 15th dress was gonna be ruined; well it sotpped raining after a while and we left it was pretty good. Food was nice..music was totally awsome. Let's see yeah then my cousin chuya left and came back ater a while with a bottle of 1800 tequila and Azteca De Oro Brandy...It was pretty funny. Well I danced the whole night basically and a whole lot of my cousins were drunk which was funny. I had 3 shots of tequila and 2 glasses of brandy and stole some drinks of brandy and hypnotic from my cousins drinks which they offered to me. So I was like SUUURE.LOL My cousin Rosa saw me drinking the first shot and she was like O_O "DAMN GIRL!!! WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING!!??" Lol I think it's funny. So yeah Rosa, Chuya, Maria (my political cousin), Eddie, More, Jr. and some others were drunk. My cousin Jamie (the bitch was also drunk lol I Love her to death) got there and poked my side and I was like "What are YOU doing here?" Basically she's friends with my parent's goddaughter and she was invited so she tagged along. So yeah she started dancing with my cousin More kinda..unapproprietly and it was funny. His mom was like..who was that skinny girl he was dancing with? Ii just held my laughter.'Twas very funny. anywho we didn't sleep till 3:30 a.m. Woke up the next day around 9 or 10 a.m. and we chilled and had fun. We didn't end up leaving Houston till 7 or 8.
So sometime earlier that day i get a phone call telling me that my roomies are at the ER one of the gurls broke her ankle so yeah. Got home around midnight and found the apartment to be full. so yeah I just chilled and said "screw the homework" and I did...we caught up and stuff of what happened in the weekend. So yeah classes were nice on Monday it was a long day but I guess that was becuase I was tired. So Monday nite I actully did ALL of my homework with the exception of my religion class which I will do later on tonite after I get out of work at 5. Let's see late at nite around 9ish I got a text from my cousin and so yeah and then I got anoter one and I thought it was my cousin sending me a funny forward but no Lo' and Behold it was ..my friend..who I like -_-' terrible Vi terrible yes I know! Never fall for the best friend..Oy what could I have done...So my roommate was playing with da cell phone and I was like careful he might call soon. So she left after a few minutes and another few minutes later he called. ...
Guess what you guys????
...I....
.....Am.....
.......Married....
The things I do to help out a friend. So yeah he asked me if I would be married with him for 6 months and well I just told him yes. We talked for a while and stuff caught up and asked me what I was doing when I said homework he was like " Oh shit I'm sorry bla bla bla. " I'd rather be talking to anyone..especially him than be doing a 2-3 hr lab simulation so yeah. He said he wanted to come over for spring break and to hang out this weekend if I have time, I need to do taxes, since we are married he wants to spend some time together with me...So I don't know what to think anymore I am officially confused. Anywho regardless I had a huge stupid grin on my face all night long and today too. My roommate came after I hang up and me and my other roomie 'manda decided to prank her and our other friend Garlene. So I told my roommate " Hey.. Gabby..I got something to tell you. You know after you left he called me like 3-5 minutes later and he just told me that...well...I'm married to him and that is why I came back the other day instead of when I originally planned." She just looked..in shock such a funny sight. GABBY DON'T KILL ME I LOVE YOU WITH MY TEENY TINY BLACK HEART!!! lol It was funny we ran with that for about 1-2 hours. She totally bought it afterwards I just told her I was kidding. Yet it was soo real. But he was acting incridbly nice to me on the phone and stuff yet I think he might have done it to sugar me on to do that..~sighs~ Boys are drama I swear! Well now we have to go shock my friend Garlene but that will be done later on today I guess I will write how that goes. So yeah. TOo much infor. in my T & T Classes I hate it..oh well. talk to you later might take a nap before i go into work at 2.
Ja ne,
The now Violeta Trevino "Perez"
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